This is probably the most difficult blog I will ever write.

We all have our pet peeves. Mine has always been being judged without the benefit of testimony.  A few months ago I realized I had become that person.  That person that I hate.  Yes, I became judgmental and accusatory.  Not only was I being judgmental and accusatory, I was doing the VERY things I despised most in others.  I began to allow my insecurities and emotions to drive my decisions.

My thoughts, my desires, my dreams.  They all consumed me.  I was becoming the woman I hate(d).  In theory I was simply following my dreams.  Unfortunately, I was also trying very hard not to become the woman that throws herself into her work because she has nothing else to do.  It appeared that everyone in my circle was living MY dream.  (As if I am the only person that could have that dream). I began to wonder what I had done so badly in life that I was living a nightmare instead of a dream.  Even the people closest to me thought I was losing my mind.  

I could never admit that I was just depressed and disappointed.