Waiting

I was having a conversation with my sister recently.  I was telling her how it hurts me to no end to be unable to fix folks problems.  Particularly those closest to me.  It always depresses me and gets me down in the dumps.  Well, she led me to this book (Christian Based). In the book the author calls the need to fix everyones problems as playing God.  I was sort of offended when she referenced this.  How is it that I, a Christian, A God Fearing Being, could be trying to play God.


Well, before I could react she continued to explain.  She explained that often times God places us in situations to exercise our faith.  And for us to trust Him to bring us out.  Unfortunately, when I try to step in and fix it I don't allow God to work.  It's not saying that God won't use us to help. It's just saying that we have to WAIT on Him.


Waiting.. . . there's that word.  That word that always sends my heart into palpitations.  Wait, that word that makes me queasy and uneasy.  Wait. . . .

• Isaiah 30:18
  And therefore will the LORD wait, that he may be gracious unto you, and therefore will he be exalted, that he may have mercy upon you: for the LORD is a God of judgment: blessed are all they that wait for him.
• Isaiah 40:31
  But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. 

Waiting . . . for me is synonymous with patience.  Neither of which I'm good at.  But I will continue to pray.  And I will begin to trust God to "fix it".  I don't doubt God's abilities.  I just sometimes get anxious. I don't like seeing sweat on the brows of those I love.  I want everybody to experience joy.  


A few days later. . . . .


I'm reading a completely different book. This one is on being liberated through submission.  Guess what the author talks about.  You guessed it.  She had the nerves to bring up that word WAIT.  So now I'm reading on in this book.  And the author discusses watching your spouse or children go through something and wanting to jump in and throw a life raft.  But you have to be willing to TRUST God because you can't PLAY God.  Wait!!!  So could it be confirmation.


Could God be telling me that people will love me even when its not my role to fix it.  See somewhere along the way I lost sight of what love is.  In my mind love means saving everybody from everything.  Because of previously unhealthy relationships with people I began to believe that if I don't fix it they will stop loving me.  Or I will disappoint them and myself.  Or that some strange way a resolve would never come.


I'm glad God sends people to speak to me.  I'm not promising that WAITING will be easy.  But I'm promising to exercise Faith.  Trust in God and WAIT on Him to tell me what to do.